Good Morning Yoga Healers, I know it’s been some time since I posted something. I am trying to do my best to at least post once a month to keep myself and everyone motivated in this journey we call life. In these past few months, I’ve really been trying to dig deep within myself to understand my life long struggle of weight and why I’ve always yo’yo’d. I just had a pretty profound conversation with my colleague who is a psychologist and I had a lot of light bulbs go off. (free therapy) lol Most of our issues in adulthood stem from our childhood and unfortunately or fortunately , however you want to look at it, we spend our entire adult life trying to understand why we do what we do. Why we over eat, why we over drink, we we hangout with people who do not help us be better human beings, etc..
In the conversation I just had, my colleague just told me that being overweight could be a way of hiding ourselves from the world. I was like “oh my gosh didn’t think of that.” A few years ago I actually made it to my goal weight and was so proud of myself. But, like most of us do, I went back to my old habits, of drinking and overeating. Guess what right back up to what I was. Now, I got all the excuses, new relationship, menopause, covid, death in the family, and just the world circumstances. So, why not eat and drink to cover up my feelings, right?
As I continue teaching yoga, practicing yoga, and meditating, I struggle with this feeling of not being in alignment with who I truly want to be. It’s been bothering me so much lately, but its so much easier to just have that immediate satisfaction of that drink, or that yummy food in order to forget about your reality for a moment.